Lots of Randomness…….
April 30, 2008I don’t really have any type of thought out post to write. What I have is my brain splitting and making me think of 5 million different things. So you get this:
- I just heard on the news that gas pricing may go down today due to the senate reducing the taxes. They say that democratic party doesn’t think this is a good idea. WHAT?? How is it NOT a good idea?? People are going broke filling their gas tanks. Come on people give us a break! Here’s to hoping they rethink the not a good idea and pass it. I’d rather pay $3.30 rather than $3.70 for gas.
- It’s snowing here this morning, and my window on my car has frost on it. Dear god, when will the nice weather be here for good?
- I’ve been a LOSER and have not walked at all this week. I should have yesterday when I got home. It was cold but the sun was at least out. Instead, I worked until 4:30 and came home and plunked my arse on the couch and took a nap. I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I feel like this week, as soon as I leave work, I’m exhausted, both physically and mentally. I’m tired of thinking, tired of running around like a freakin mad woman at work. The stress is getting to me, so I know a walk would do wonders. I just haven’t been able to force myself to get out there and do it. Maybe tonight? I need to find the energy!!
- Yesterday, my visitors at work, never showed up until 1:30pm. They were supposed to be there at 11am. I planned my entire days’ activities around them being there at 11. So to say I was upset is an understatement. When they got there, I basically told them, you have my undivided attention until 2pm, then you need to leave. So that left 1/2 hour. I believe they were really taken aback by my response. But really? When you say you are going to be there at 11 and don’t show up until 2 1/2 hours later, what do you expect? Normally, I would have been “oh it’s ok..” and cleared the rest of my schedule, but really, I have no time to do this or put up with such disrespect and rudeness. I was told I was a “priority” however, it was made clear by their actions I was not. Then in the 1/2 hour they were there, they were asking questions about if this or that was being done. My honest answer was “I have no idea?” In which they said well how do you not know? you are the boss? My response, “I didn’t know it had to be done! When I started out this job in September, NOT 1 single person came to train me, NOT 1 single person made any type of effort to explain to me what exactly my new job entails and what exactly I needed to be doing. I have been flying by the seat of my pants..and guessing at what needed to be done and guessing at what needed to be handled and guessing on how to get the shit done!” They were shocked. Said they had no clue, I was not trained. Umm yeah sure!! Like I believe that one!! The response I got, “well it’s a good thing you are smart!” Are you freaking kidding me? A little help would have been nice!
- Yesterday afternoon, I spent some time cleaning out the guys classroom. I’m having difficulty getting the kids to even walk in the room. Yes they despised the guy that much. So I figured in order to be able to use the room again, I needed to change it. Right now, it is a complete DISASTER! This is my priority first thing this morning. I’m going to recruit some kids help and we will get it done ASAP!!
- I have been calling my mother every night for the past 3 nights and I’ve been put on the back burning every single time. I’m kinda irritated. I call and she’s busy, and I get, “I will call you back”. Then I never hear back from her. Sometimes, I just need to talk to her, but when I feel like I’m getting blown off, it sucks! I’m done trying!
- I’ve also tried to call my brother last night, and no answer. I want to see my girls (my nieces). I miss them terribly! In case you didn’t know…I need to make an “appointment” in order to see them…it’s a LONG story!! Plus he’s in charge of getting our MOther’s Day gift for my mom. Not sure if it is being done..we are going in halves on it. I need to know so I can get my butt in gear if he hasn’t done anything!
- I’ve been feeling really lonely lately. I keep looking at old pictures of the ex BF and I and it makes me sad. I so want that feeling back! The feeling of being able to come home and tell someone how my day went. I miss the companionship. I still think of him quite often! I pretend I’m over him, but not really sure if I am! I’m not sure that if he were to knock on my door, if I wouldn’t take it back. I know that won’t happen, but I feel I should be moving on by now. I just want this single crap to end and the rest of my life to move on…and thinking about this gets me depressed. Honestly, I have no idea how to move past it or how to make it happen!
- I have the “feeling” (you know like a gut feeling) that something bad is about to happen. The problem is, I have no idea what it is. I just have that “feeling.” Kinda worries me, god knows I can’t take much more…..I hate when I’m in a constant worry state…..
- I am excited, because I’ve contact Kellie’s blog header maker, and I’m having her make a header for me!! I’m excited to see what she comes up with!! But I feel like and idiot, last night? I sent her 3 emails! YES THREE!! All three emails had ideas of what I’m looking for…poor girl..I need to just let her do her thing and leave her alone. But I’m freakin excited to see what she comes up with. I figured screw it, I waste more money on crap I don’t need, so I am spending money on something I do use every day!! So stay tuned, I will be having a new “look” to my site hopefully in the near future!!
- I have SOO much more to write but a) I’m sure you are all SICK of me complaining and b) I need to go shower and get ready for work!!
Go about your business, I’m done!! Thanks for listening!
