Archive for October, 2007

A little sigh of Relief…

October 16, 2007

My mom is doing wonderful! She is recovering very well!  My Dad says he can’t keep her sitting still anymore..she’s up doing laundry and doing some other stuff.  The good news??  The surgeon called her and told her that her Lymph Nodes were clear…it has NOT SPREAD!! YEAH!! Such a sigh of relief!! But the semi bad news…he still wants her to go through chemo!    I guess that is a good thing..that way it will kill any damn cells that are left in her system.  The problem??  I really REALL don’t want to see her go through this process, the pain, the tiredness..all of it…I’m so not ready for it!! Also I know this scares her tremendously!  She has not told me personally, but she has told everyone else! I just hope they give her the pill form or give her a lesser strength dose! But I guess looking on the positive side of things…it will help her beat this beast and ensure it NEVER returns! Also some positives…what they thought was a walnut sized tumor was only a pea size!  Even though this whole process has been a nightmare…I guess it has turned out to be the best possible outcome it could be!! 

As for today,  I am getting ready to head out for a 3 day conference for work.  Joy! It is actually a great conference..but really..I hate the packing end of it..and the fact that I will be living out of a suitcase for 3 days.  The good news is I will hopefully be able to see Kellie and Morgan.  I’m not sure when I will be able to see them, but if nothing else maybe on Thursday when I leave I can stop by for a few minutes or they can meet me somewhere.  The next three days are packed full!  We go until almost 8 or 9 at night every single night.  I’m tired already!! haha  This morning, I still have yet to finish packing, better yet, shower and get my arse ready to go.  It’s already 7am and I need to be out of the house by 9 (well 9:30 at the latest).  I figured it will take me about 3 hours to get to my destination.  I honestly have no clue how I’m getting there.  I have printed 2 sets of directions of the iternet and well they are both 2 DIFFERENT sets of which directions do I follow?? haah  I guess I will just pick one and go with it!  This will be determined as I start driving..whatever directions I pull out I will go with it! I suppose I should get moving…I just wanted to give you all an update!



October 12, 2007

I so can’t even begin to tell you how happy I am it is FRIDAY!!  I am so has been such a long week.  Yesterday I went back to work.  It wasn’t too stressful, although the kids are acting up and have been a handful all week.  Thank god I only have to deal with it for 2 days.  Really I’m in no mood.  Yesterday I basically hid in my office and just puttered.  Last night when  I got home..damn it felt like I had been working for like 24 hours straight!  I had a pounding headache all day and it only got worse when I got home.  I took 4 aleve and that did absolutely nothing, it didn ‘t even touch it.  So then I put 2 of thos ICY hot patches on my shoulders..because they were extremely tight and sore and well I think causing my headache…although it did loosen my shoulder muscles a bit..still did not touch my headache.  My next step, cut a piece of the icy hot patch and put it on my forehead..did that for almost 2 1/2 hours..and no relief…took that off and put some of that head-on crap on. You know its the stuff from the commerical we all Hate “HEAD-On, applied directly to the forehead” that one.  Yeah well the commerical help.  Finally at 9pm, said screw it and went to bed.  I couldn’t deal anymore.  This Morning?  My headache is still there, but  not as bad, I just took 4 motrin.  My shoulders..yup still killing me. 

 I am not going home this weekend, I should but I’m not going.  My mom seems great and she has plenty of help at home.  My Aunt that lives close to my mom, has been spending so much time with her.  It is very comforting to know she is there for my mom.  I asked her if she thought I should come home? Her response, no she is doing really well.  So that makes me feel a little better.  I do feel guilty, but really I’m so beat, and it’s not like a physical beat more like mentially beat!!  I do call my mom 2 to 3 times a day to see how she is doing.  I hope she understands.  Plus I am going away next week for work for a 3 day conference…so I kinda want to just relax and CHILL and do nothing all weekend long.(I know this won’t really happen..but that is my intention!!)  I also called and made an appointment for an hour long massage tomorrow.  I so can’t wait..I hope it helps relieve some of the stress and tension that is causing me so many ailments!! 

A little ray of Sunshine…

October 10, 2007

Ok I’m totally cheating here…I sent this as a mass email to some people that I have an email address if you’ve already read and received this I apologize…quite frankly..I’m beat and too tired to write it again so I just copied and pasted it.  I wanted to let everyone know how my mom was doing…so here goes:

 I  just wanted to say thank you first of all for all your kind words, support and prayers. My mom did have surgery yesterday…it was supposed to be Thursday but the rescheduled her.  It only took the surgeon about 2 1/2 hours and his report seemed positive.  He seems to think he got it all!! YEAH!!  He said the tumor seemed pretty localized and didn’t seem to think it spread.  He did end up doing a partial mastecomy, but he said the surrounding tissue around the tumor looked healthy and normal and her lymph nodes..which he took about 10-12 of them out seemed to look healthy and normal as well! VERY GOOD SIGNS!  Of course we still need to wait for the results from the lab to confirm what he says…and we should find out in about 5 – 10days!!   The doctor told us yesterday if my mom was up to it he would let her go home last night..HOWEVER with my mouth..I told him she was prepared to spend the night in the hospital and that is what we wanted and felt most comfortable with.   So that is what happened…I ended up staying at the hospital until about 8:30 last night..then left so she could get a good nights sleep.  My dad and I got there around 8:30 this morning and she was doign SO WELL!! The doctor came around 9ish and looked at her and said she was doing great so he discharged her…she was home by 10:30am!!  She was very happy to be home! 

I decided to come back to my house today…she and my dad have a great support group of friends at home..they have been awesome..we have had dinner delivered to us every single night and I know it will continue…So now I am back home..going back to work tomorrow and much better spirits and praying the results are just as positive as the surgery!!  Thank you all so much!!!  Although she is not out of the woods yet…it is a very good start and we are slowly starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel!!

***AGAIN THANK YOU ALL SOOOO MUCH FOR YOUR SUPPORT…your kind words and prayers have done so much for me!!  More than you will ever know! I am so lucky to have all of you as friends….you are all so very special!! Thank you again!!!***

The results..

October 4, 2007

I am not getting into it all ..I simply just can’t at this moment..but the results of my mom’s testing were not good.  She does have Breast Cancer and is having surgery on Tuesday. Totally sucks..I may not be posting for a while..I am going to go home this weekend and spend at least a week with her to help her get through this..

Thank you all for your support..right now..we need everything we can get..this absolutely sucks!  It is very hard to deal with I will tell you that much….Yesterday had to have been the HARDEST DAY Of my life!!  I can only imagine what my mom is going through!  Keep the prayers coming PLEASE…she needs them in the worst way right now!!